You can't turn around on a one way street.

I cried. Now I feel better. (: I was super stressed up alr trying to put things right and my parents had to make it worse. They piss me off when I am in a bad mood. Like everytime. -.- And I'm getting real pissed with my dad. He is damn insensitive?? And alw acts like he knows everyt. Sorry for saying this, but seriously. I cannot take it any longer. I hardly talk to him now? Zhen Hui was asked me before whether ______ can take my dad's place in my heart and I said yes. She was like, whattttt?? But yeah, somehow that's what I feel. Zzzzzz I hope everyt will work out tmr. If not I will feel very hurt. I put so much effort into it and if everybody disagrees with me I think I will get pissed off again. Gah I feel kinda lost now. For no reason. Shit why am I feeling like this.

And Alan Chan totally pissed me off too during swimming class. He said I wasn't interested in the class. Like wtf. Yes I swam slow but I was alr trying my best. I am wearing 3 layers of shit clothing what does he expect?! 2 laps under 3 mins is impossible. Hey that's a freaking big pool not some jacuzzi. He can say I'm lousy stupid idiotic moronic whatever but he cannot say I'm not interested, cos I really was trying my best. So if I'm not interested I would have quit swimming long ago. Life sucks. I have sucidal thoughts sometimes. Like drowing myself when I was swimming just now. 死是一种解脱. Yes that's what it seems like to me.